Her Smile

It has been a valuable and amazing ride. I have journeyed deep within myself to parts I thought I would never have enough strength to go. I realize now…I got the power! I feel tremendous. What a great word, tremendous…awe inspiring, extraordinarily large, marvelous!

Food has always been a comfort for me. When I look at pictures of myself as a very young girl anyone could see my light. It radiated all over me. When the darkness came to overshadow it, my smile wasn’t as wide and my cheeks got chubbier and chubbier. Food became my friend, my comforter in times I could not understand and food was consistently good to me…
During this fast, I have healed so many parts of myself. I never really thought I could go a whole day without eating anything, let alone two weeks. I tried this cleanse before. I thought I just couldn’t do it. Food was my rock. But, today as I am looking at this journey from the end, I know I did not rely on my thoughts to make it through. I am empowered by my courage to try it and my strength to endure it. My body is renewed, my mind is clear and my spirit soars like it did when I was six.

Today is the 9th anniversary of my Mama Queen, Saint Sandy Frederick’s transition from this physical dimension. Nine is the number of completion. I can remember how much pain she suffered by the end, but now I can see her smiling down on her family, and especially her seven glorious and shining grandchildren. She is here, protecting us as we honor her spirit with pure hearts. I am celebrating her legacy, the joy she left with us. I am celebrating her smile which I find firmly planted on my face. I smile a smile of Truth, given by Mama and polished by this fast. I celebrate her eternal Love that can never die. Today, I celebrate myself!

I did it! Now I know I can do anything! A new day has come in my life and there is no turning back!

I am new. I am Fiyah. I am Truth.

Mantra: Breathe and let Light fill you. I will do what I can to be healed. There is no better time to let go.